31 December 2015

new year's eve tarot

a little tarot spread for the last day of 2015, looking forward to what 2016 has to bring... using the star spread from Rachel Pollack's New Tarot Handbook.

A: Hope
8 of wands
entering 2016 there's positive movement in your life. things are moving. this won't be another year of stagnation...

B: Guidance
9 of pentacles
follow your inner guide to satisfaction & fulfillment this year. but also remember to stay present & grateful for where you are, how far you've come, & what you've achieved.

C: Peace
the hanged man inverted
peace comes from moving on. this year you're ready to untie yourself from a binding situation that no longer serves you & let go.

D: Healing
10 of cups
I think of the 10 of cups as the happiest card in the entire deck. your healing comes through happiness & fulfillment but it is also its cause. healing creates happiness & happiness creates healing. cultivate both in 2016. 

happy new year everyone. may 2016 continue to be weird & wonderful for you & bring many moments of learning, laughing, & a lot of burritos.


28 December 2015

letter, early 2000's (?)

looking through old art projects & journals
surfing the #artjournal tag on instagram
to keep moving


23 December 2015

current events

-reading books
-dealing tarot
-learning lenormand
-cat quality time

13 December 2015

reading poems

Reading two poems at the Poetic Research Bureau in downtown LA, 11 December 2015.

08 December 2015

I'm reading this friday, 11 december, at poetic research bureau in LA.
A group of very cool poets/writers/humans from CalArts & UCSD will be reading brief interludes, free & open to the public. More info on the facebook event page


01 December 2015

“starting over--the idea--is a lot like the idea of mental health.
(“when you woke up, was it there?”)”

        -Kate Greenstreet

22 November 2015


emotion regulation handout 6, cut & woven paper, 2015.

writing is ruthlessly cutting out things your spent hours fashioning from nothing.
here is a concrete poem I cut from my graduate thesis last week. 

15 November 2015


"masquerading yourself
as yourself.

the journey is it's own reward.

memory is just a word.

artists have to be vampires & parasites."

31 October 2015

getting a little psycho this halloween

wanna watch me wrapped in sheet paying tribute to my all time favourite scary flick, psycho? you're in luck, that's exactly what I have for you this halloween!

a tribute to psycho from Natalie Raymond on Vimeo

I'm such a dork, but I had a jolly good time making this lil nerd video. also: lol ignore my little bugs... I left my window open all day before I realized there was a giant hole in my screen. whoops.

Happy Halloween & Blessed Samhain to all.

28 October 2015

tarot of terror: the tower

a while back I drew 'the tower' in my daily tarot reading. my initial thought was: oh shit.

but I've been thinking now about the tower for the past several weeks... & it doesn't feel quite so doom & gloom anymore.

in her book, the new tarot handbook (which I highly recommend, along with everything else she's ever written) Rachel Pollack writes:

"the tower does not only mean destruction, it can also mean release of energy or some powerful revelation that changes everything. the change is usually positive, even if it feels painful in the moment."

in my notes I wrote:
"sometimes you need to burn everything down to prepare for new things to grow"

I think of it as a kind of fertilization process. when farmers burn their old crops to ash to prepare the soil for the new plantings. is there pain in this destruction? yes, of course. but isn't it more painful to stay firmly where you are, unable to flex & grow? change is never easy, it certainly never has been for me, but pulling up your roots allows space for new things to take shape.

I've been thinking about that a lot. how to create space for the things you desire to expand. the creating of space seems to be the most important part. you can't fill a vessel that's already full of old ideas & old dreams.

you can't build a new tower without destroying the old one first.

19 October 2015

11 October 2015

mindful climbing

"Mindfulness is a state of active, open attention on the present. When you're mindful, you observe your thoughts and feelings from a distance, without judging them good or bad. Instead of letting your life pass you by, mindfulness means living in the moment and awakening to experience." -Psychology Today

hiking among trees
rustling in hot wind
with dirt folding
into the bends of my arms &
behind my knees
I feel the muscles 
of my thighs 
rise, rise, rise

28 September 2015


getting going.
getting the ball rolling.
new headshots & a photo gallery are added to my website.

14 September 2015

"Il faut d├ępasser le but pour l'atteindre."
Charles Augustin Sainte-Beuve

"One must go beyond their goals in order to achieve them."

28 August 2015


Tuesday I performed in the showcase for the acting class I've been taking at Andrew Wood Acting Studio in Hollywood. Had a lot of fun learning with these rad people & can't wait to work with them again!

most of the gang.

this is the best facial expression I've ever had.

15 August 2015

"I've been thinking about it & I think cockroaches are my spirit animal. They follow me & are hard looking but easy to squish."
-journal entry, 14 August 2015.

21 June 2015

"we cannot simply sit & stare at our wounds forever. we must stand up & move on to the next action."
-haruki murakami

24 May 2015


some photos from my friday at california adventure park celebrating my 27th birthday.

17 May 2015

"it's never too late to be what you might have been"
-george eliot

28 April 2015

tarot: 2 of swords

what are you refusing to see?
what are you keeping hidden?
what feelings are you rejecting?

23 April 2015

making tiny things

I made a tiny zine/collage/book thingy. 

Original collage & poem by me. First edition. 
If you'd like to purchase a copy, limited quantities are available in my newly minted shop. 

20 April 2015

on the gorgeous nothings

video of Jen Bervin and Marta Werner talking about the gorgeous nothings: Emily Dickinson's envelope poems

10 April 2015

10 February 2015

today's tarot

go out into the world

04 February 2015

two cities

New York City folds, Los Angeles curls like long fingers tipped with pointed nails.

New York City pants, Los Angeles practices meditative breathing.

New York City hunches its shoulders, Los Angeles struts with its chest pushed forward.

01 February 2015


Went to the LA Art Book Fair at MOCA yesterday. 
Perused the endless tables of bookish creations. 
Got inspired for my own small press explorations.

30 January 2015

TBR book list

I was tagged by the lovely Rebecca Ann Jordan.

My TBR list, super pared down & all I can remember from my notebook scribbles on the subject.

Bough Down - Karen Green
The Last 4 Things - Kate Greenstreet
The Gorgeous Nothings - Emily Dickinson/Jen Bervin
A Little White Shadow - Mary Ruefle
Ecodeviance - CA Conrad
Red Juice - Hoa Nguyen
Vicious Red Relic, Love - Anna Joy Springer

Read my TBR list answers under the cut.

20 January 2015

14 January 2015

notes: the main benefit of art school is self-loathing.


the desire & ability to interact with the world on a conceptual level.

Art is free. Free to make. Free to consume. Free to fake.

what’s bad is when you just start putting stuff out into the world without thinking about it at all. when you don’t have to examine your place or ask any questions. when you simply run around smiling like an idiot saying “I’m an artist” without the knowledge to investigate anything.

art is investigation.

we like to pretend that “there is no wrong answer” in art, in literature. BUT THIS IS A LIE. when shakespeare wrote; “love all // trust a few // do harm to none” he was NOT talking about giving daisies to kittens. if you believe he was writing about giving daisies to kittens you are WRONG.

instead of worrying about who gets to run around saying they’re an artist, we should be worrying about what the art itself ACTUALLY SAYS.

07 January 2015

emily dickinson's 1129, original manuscript (johnson numbering)

(the first two lines of which is tattooed on my arm)